hiatus period over.

Its been such a long time since I've written anything. Perhaps the most recent 'writings' were the ones which could get me into uni. I don't know. I feel that I write much better than I speak. Perhaps its because i'm able to process what I want to say instead of shooting off my mouth, offending others and feeling bad about it.
Well.. well, so much has happened since the start of my pro-longed vacation. Its such a wonder that the past 7 months have flew so quickly, even before I would sign up for driving or even before I could shed the 5kg I've always imagined i would- when i get done with 'As'. wow, time and tide truly waits for no man. The saying cannot be denied. Honestly. Let me really start anew from this date.

Mmm, let me explain why I chose this link: the-memoranda.blogspot.com
My favourite novel is 'Wuthering Heights'. If anyone has read it, they would understand or at least jiggle their brains to the direction that it is a tragic love story. Not more than tragedy itself that I am a 'sadist' to like that book. But rather, I enjoy reading about the deep passion which Heathcliff has for Catherine. Yes, I know that it is an unorthodox love. But everyone is entitled to their own opinion and I guess, my opinion is that such deep passion which entails a little of self is worth commendation. Let me refer you to my favourite extract from the book: "what is not connected with her to me? and what does not recall her? I cannot look down to this floor, but her deatures are shaped on the flags? In every cloud, in every tree- filling the air at night, and caught by glimpses in every object, by day I am surrounded with her image! The most ordinary faces of men and women- my own features-mock me with a resemblance. The entire world is a dreadful collection of memoranda that she did exist, and that I have lost her!" Perhaps I'm bias that the novel is worth more what it has to offer but I can't snap out of it.

That being said, I still have a lot more to discover about life. Its not just romance alone. Perhaps its a journey of self-discovery where I have to come to terms to being left very much on my own. I refuse to put it in a full word- INDEPENDENT but really, over the years, I've learnt that everyone has to be on their own in order to fully understand themselves. No one can guide, No one will guide. No one, but you. YOU have to be on life's journey alone. As much as I try to run away from the fact that I have to start facing problems, struggles, disturbing thoughts and the past that haunts me all the time, I have to brace myself with courage. So tough but its not like I have a choice.

I wish all a good day. I'll be regular in posting.